End Of Fairy Tale - Part I

The above subject can be appreciated only by those who have actually seen what a fairy tale is like, one of those real lucky fellows happen to be me. My Fairy Tale Part I is the 1st semester at IIT Delhi which unfortunately is at its fagging end. I clearly remember the day I landed up here was on the 21st of July; thinking that I am going to tread wary waters I was a bit too sceptical about how my stay at Delhi was going to unfold like. The initial two days were very hectic as I had to do a lot of running around to secure myself a room in one of the hostels.

Being reclusive & reticent by nature, I could not mingle with new people and it was left to my undergrad mate & office collegue - Ayan to accompany ourselves. Its always difficult to find people who are of the same tune as one would like to be and thats when the "Fairy Tale" began. As time passed I got to meet a few more people, though it would do justice if put it this way that a few very good people came to meet me - namely Amrita, Aritra, Anirban, Madhurima & Abhik. Coincidentally all being bengalis, even though there are a lot of differences among Bengalis from the fact that the culture they come from, their upbringing, but for us it was as if the parts a Jigsaw Puzzle were just put in place by Lady Luck! We are the perfect group as each one can easily complement the other, each one can read the others mind and we have gelled so good that each one of us can stand in for the other.

For me personally IIT Delhi was transition phase, I feel that I've changed a lot from what I was before, its like a metamorphosis at post IIT stay. And this phase is the best phase of my life and it could'nt get any better; thanx to all the above mentioned friends of mine with special thanx to Amrita. For the first time ever I went on a tour to Jaipur without my parents entourage!!!!. It also will remain etched in my mind for life long as I had great stay during the trip.

I was thinking that the Durga Pujas at Delhi will not be like what it is in Calcutta, yeah its not like Calcutta for sure, but just a bit better, because I got to hang out with these guys which otherwise doesnt happen in Calcutta.

We did have tough times, it is like the salt in your food, one doesnt know the importance of salt till he/she starts missing it in the food. Similarly, the tough times were the dreaded exam times, it sapped a lot of our energy because 3 exams in 4 months is a tough ask isn't it? But with energies sapped after exams, we were all there to rejuvinate ourselves, so that the exams are a necessary evil.

We had fest - Rendezvous 2010, we hanged out till 5 in the morning, we jumped with joy, we danced, we cracked jokes on others, we all had our share of remorse & grief, we chatted for long hours, we studied till late 3 in the morning, we came together without any goals and we created our goals. This is life, this is out time, never to look back, just to tread forward and make a mark for ourselves with the support of all.

But today as the Death Knell rings for us to retreat to our homes, I with a very grief stricken & heavy heart say that - THIS IS HOME! it couldn't get any better. To sum it up I would say that finding you guys at the fag end of our lives when responsibilities with clawed hands are gripping on us, I have found solace and will treasure these days for a long long time.

I HAVE BEEN THROUGH THIS FAIRY TALE! Though it still feels that we have only met just the other day, & the good times have passed so quickly.

It was an honour to have found you fellas

Landing at an IIT - A dream

20th of July, 2010 was when I landed at Delhi, but this time it was for a longer duration. I was going to pursue an M.Tech from IIT Delhi. I have spend hours earlier thinking what joy these IITians go through just by fact that they are a part of the elite institutes of the country; I have been awe struck on more than one occassions when ever I've seen a person wearing an IIt/IIM labled T-shirt. I just felt amazed at their achievement in being a part of these great institutions. I also wanted to be a part of institutions of such high calibre, but since the day I started working at L&T the dream of striking a chord at these institutes were gradually becoming a far cry from the ground reality. I could only appease myself by saying that may be I will crack into an IIM next time, but dreams were bound to remain dreams till like a "Bolt From The Blue" and by shear God's grace I landed up here. The feeling that I have just cannot be expressed in words; hearing the HOD of Civil Engg department just sent a shiver through my spine - It was indeed a dream come true.
Well the initial two days at IIT were really hectic, we had to run around to foster a room at the hostel and then the admission formalities really sapped all my energy. But just as the saying goes - "Every Clod Has A Silver Lining" so did I. I finally got a room at the Nilgiri House which is 2 kms from the college building. I had to set up room, in the process I learnt what all are required to start a very very small family - a single husband you say. I started doing things which I've never done - cleaning my room, washing clothes, keeping a buffer bucket of water, etc. The food is very simple with a few options. Every hostel houses its own mammoth dining hall, Table Tennis, Reading Room, Library, Outdoor games like tennis.
The course structure was such that one has to choose its own subjects apart from the ones that are compulsory and thus can formulate what one wants from the institute. One can go across the departments to choose certain subjects like management, electrical, humanities, anything under IIT Delhi. Hence the freedom of study is much more here.
This in short were my initial days at IIT Delhi, I share more once the course kicks off.

TONIGHT'S GONNA BE A GOOD NIGHT

Today was really awesome for me. After a long time 3 of the 4 musketeers(Archisman,Shamik,Sayandeep&myself) got to meet each other with Archi not turning up. We went to City Centre and watched Karthick Calling Karthik. The film was really nice but on a slower pace at times and the concept -SCHIZOPHRENIA is a copy from Russel Crowe's A beautiful Mind(based on the life story of the Nobel Laurete - John Nash). But overall the film was good. To add to the film our very close friend gave us a treat at Haaka and then we had some KFC Crunchy's and sat to watch the match between KKR & RC on the big screen.... what a crowd and what hilarious comments.. But the girls were also passing their comments was strange to see... anyways beautiful girls mouthing vulgars is like masala in areated drinks.... good ,really good, reallyreally good.
We were there for some time and when we were sure that KKR is definite to win we headed for our homes and I visited Shamik's house on the way back to check on his all new lappy. I made up my mind that this time I'll take a leave for a couple of days and am sure to get one of those high end laptops....
We had a lot of food & drinks and I was really full.. but then my mom prepared some special food for the dinner as a part of some preplanned programme gon haywire.. But I took it as a birthday treat from family to me....
Its hard to know that I won't be seeing Shamik for quite a long time now that I'm going elsewhere and he's coming back to Calcutta only during the Durga Puja which won't be possible for me, but Sayandeep will be there for the offering hopefully for some more time atleast till July and no whereabouts of Archisman.
We hope and know that our bonding will be there for the rest of our lives

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COMEDY OF ERRORS

As the title suggest lemme discuss about the "COMEDY OF ERRORS" in my life which has ultimately given me solace through finally another comedy of error.
(1) First Error, during my school days I was moderately good atBiology but really good at Computers and it aslo appealed to me far more than mugging up some Bacterias,Viruses and other unpronounciable words. I had made up my mind that I was going to pursue Computers in my Plus 2 exams and eventually go on to become a good IT guy. But there I committed my first mistake - my Class 10 board exams for Computers did not go well cos people & myself had really high expectations from me and that lead to "Nervous Breakdown" and I could score only a paltry 78 marks resulting to make me think if I can actually make Computers my career. There I made up mind and my 1st mistake - based on one exam's marks I let go Computer for Biology in my plus 2.
(2) Second Error, in my plus 2 I really started liking Chemistry though my marks were not good because I never attended personal tution classes of the teacher setting the Q papers resulting into getting lesser marks. But I used to get good marks at the coaching classes I used to attend and was confident of scoring 90 and getting into either Presi or Xaviers. But in class 12 board exams I scored 86 in Chemistry and 88 in Physics(the subject I barely passed in school because on one Mr.Mukherjee who hated me as I refused his offer of coaching classe). So I knew with 86 I can't get into either Presi or Xaviers and I am not even a Christian who gets free liscence to get into Xaviers even with pass marks. With my name in the 2nd list of Physics in Xaviers I did not go for it instead I went and joined MSIT in Civil Engg. thinking that after 4 yrs I am sure to have a decent job being an engineer as I was never confident that a B.Sc coupled with M.Sc will get me the fortunes.
(3) Third Error, I was again studying Computers at college as a compulsory subject and I was good at it by simple flair of my computer knowledge and I was sure to join a top IT company
as they visited our campus on a regular basis. At 3rd year I got a job in Cognizant and was really happy, but then in 2008 came the gloom of Depression and our joinings got indefinitely delayed resulting me to start searching Construction jobs and eventually at the end of 4th year came the behemoth in construction industry - L&T Ltd. and I got in

All these errors have taken me to a level where I never wanted to be, given me things I never desired for and ultimately I wanted to do an MBA which also never materialised. But I am very grateful to God , my parents, my Grandpa and all my elders & peers to have been by my side always, making more determined with every failure making me more competent and ultimately helping me reach a level from where I would never have to look back and say taht I could have made a better SOUPTIK SARKAR out of me. The blessings have God had always showered on me and today I am really happy that though ultimate dream of an MBA rests I have ventured into other better fields which will give my career the boost to excel- for this I especially thank God,my peers at L&T and my immediate boss for developing me into far more realistic & confident Souptik Sarkar

THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR SUPPORT

My Trip to Delhi

The other day I was in Delhi on some official tour. The trip was good tough the reasons for being there on the 1st place were not entirely satisfying. Overall it was 3rd time in the Capital City but I was equally excited to tour the place as I was on my 1st occassion. My tour was truncated thanx to some serious fog which resulted in our Rajdhani express being late by 14 hours. So my program for the day was cancelled and I had to wait till the folowing day's afternoon. Staying at Nehru Place I was very close to Lotus Temple, so I began with Lotus Temple; let me add here that this beautiful structure was constructed by L&T itself and that too at no cost, so it makes me feel proud to be a part of this organisation.
From Lotus Temple I went to Connaught Place - Palika Bazar. I hanged out there for a while seeing the beauty quen of Delhi. But I noticed one thing that every lady was pretty glamorous with a pall of make-up which was making me feel that in case to there misfortune if there happened to be a downpour suddenly all the glamour of all the girls would come off in an instant and then their faces may actually freak out anbody around. The Delhi girls are very unlike their Calcutta counterparts where true beauty prevails without any cosmetics to elivate the looks. I rather feel that in case there is a no cosmetic beauty contest our Calcutta girls will win undisputedly. Well, coming back to where I was , it was a good evening with some shopping, dining and BIRD watching and ultimately ending the day with a night shot at India Gate. It was my 1st time that I visited India Gate after noon time.
Next day was my departure but still I made time to visit Qutab Minar and Mehrauli Market and then again to Connaught Place to do some more shopping. The trip ended soon with a lunch at Janpath and I was back retracing my steps to Maithon.
Anyways to sum it up it was a nice tour overall

Give me Some SUNSHINE, Give Me Some RAIN

Its been a long long time since I wrote some blog. Well fellas its high time who've earned one hehehehe!!!!
Last few months were a bit hectic for me - I lost my closest person - my grandpa on 17th Nov'09 and then I lost track of my preparations and soon came the dreaded entrance exms kicking on my doors.Thanx to my underpreparedness and my lackadaisal effort I kept consistently giving below par tests and the results were obvious. But to be true I am stile recuperationg from my loss of my grandpa - he was very proud of me. Entire Dec. I kept myself busy with office works and entrance exams on Sundays to brush off my grandpa's memories. Soon, the results were also getting declared and I wasfeeling like this the perfect time of my life when everything I touch turns to BULLSHIT - its like the antiMIDAS -"SOUPTIK TOUCH". All thse things along with a hectic working schedule added to mine relapsing a pretty gruesome medical condition which could have otherwise requied surgery and painful one that too. My dad relented to my mom's wish and took me home for treatment and since the day I had landed here my mom tells me to star searching for a new job.
But all this while I had been thinking that day by day I am gradually falling short of my dreams, my ambitions, my goals and the future is pretty bleak and my dreams may remain only dreams. Currently I feel that we are only money making machines and that too the return is not worth it.I always wanted to do something good, something big, but what I am doing is very much the same thing over and over and over again with the same problems crooping up also over and over again. My thought is such because whatever I am doing is being done by the rest of the employed population, so good am I doing ? wheres the bloody big deal in working in a big corp.????
To sum it up its high time I thought some thing productive about myself, taken some risk and just braved forward without thinking about consequences.Thse are all beter said than done and thus I just hope that may GOD shower his blessing of sunshine and rain on this pretty twisted life of mine and give me for once what I desire.